Friday, October 9, 2009
one week to go
Reality is striking hard. One more week and were off to Children's to really have this surgery done. honestly today I have been fighting the anxieties that pop up. I find myself getting weepy when I am holding Jireh and nursing him. I just look at his head and cherish this time of no scar. I kiss his sweet head and as the tears roll down my cheeks, I thank God for providing doctors for this surgery and a great hospital and most importantly for friends that are praying for our sweet boy. God is so good to us. May I have the strength to fight off the doubt and fears. Jireh is God's child and he is only loaned to me. Next friday I have to physically hand over Jireh and give him to the doctors. In my mind I will be handing him back over to God. I pray that God will give him back to me just hours later with a new and improved head. I pray that Jireh will go on to live a great life with a great story and that he will know the Lord at a young age and able to share the greatness of God.